#6 Am I gross or is it just me...

Is it just me or is being a mom gross like all the time? This weird thing seems to happen after you have a baby, it’s this combination of being exhausted and hungry and busy all the time that makes you a little gross. Then you add the gross things you encounter from your precious baby’s body and you start to wonder if you’ll ever feel sexy again. I’ve been thrown up on A LOT and I don’t mean like my baby spit up type I mean my entire lap and chest is covered in puke more times then I’d like to admit. The other day I literally changed my shirt 4 times because I had been spit up on. Just the other day I was joking with my husband about how many’s days I could make my eye makeup last. I get drooled on consistently now and change poppy diapers, and usually have breast milk soaking a spot on my body at some time during the day. Sometimes, I get so tired of changing my outfit that I let it sit way longer then I should and there’s definitely weeks that I only shower once because I’ve been so exhausted and have had no extra time and it’s easy to feel disgusting. It’s easy to live in my sweats and jammies whenever I’m home and to only wear my comfiest clothes and undies all the time but let’s be honest no matter how badly I’d like them to be not all my comfy clothes aren’t necessarily the cutest and I want to feel cute. I don’t want being a mom to mean compromising feeling good about my self and even though I may not have the same amount of time to take care of myself as I used to there has to be a happy medium. So I recently decided I would start small by only wearing my fancy underwear. I may have to wear a nursing bra all the time right now which btw why are they all so basic and ugly? It’s a serious challenge to find a nursing bra that’s not a million dollars but also not a boring basic bra and of all times to need a cute bra it’s right after you’ve pushed a human out of your body. Anyways if I have to wear a boring nursing bra I’m at least going to wear pretty panties, it’s something small that makes me feel a little prettier. I also ventured out and bought some high waisted jeans. I was a little unsure at first but I bought a cheap pair so I wouldn’t have to feel guilty if I hated them but I’m actually really happy I bought them. I’ve technically lost my baby weight but I still feel kinda squishy and have a pooch that I like to have covered and the jeans (thank the lord they’re back in style) help tuck that in and make me feel more comfortable with my look which in turn makes me feel more cute. I’m learning to appreciate my new body and I know it’s only been a couple months and I need to take it easy on myself as you should because you definitely deserve some extra leeway but I also want to feel good about myself with where I’m at. Just because I’m a mom now doesn’t mean that I’m not still Bethany as well or that I have to sacrifice feeling good about myself to care for my baby. As a side note I also think it’s important for your relationship to not totally quit on being your cute old self, just like you want him to keep taking care of himself and no he didn’t birth a human but I bet he doesn’t want to feel like he lost his wife just as much as you don’t want to feel like you lost who you are. So start small and do things that remind you of you, and make you feel good, mine is wearing cute underwear and getting my lashes done. Which I upgraded from classic to volume on myself this last week by the way and I feel so glamorous it’s ridiculous I’m like a new woman. But maybe yours is doing your eye makeup once a week or a face mask or maybe taking time to go on a run or take a bubble bath but do something that makes you feel good about yourself and slowly add to it, because you can’t properly care for everyone else if you don’t take care of yourself first, easier said then done but like I said start small you’ll be happy you did.